Hehe...2day is a happy n high day...the sad me go away le...cheerful me is back.haha...lame me...i noe.But the sad me sometimes will come back lah...only when i go think of it...dun think then no prob le...2day HCL paper diff sia...i think A1 is quite diff 2 reach le leh...slept during paper 1 n 2...when i sleep will jerk de...so dunno got ppl see not leh...haha.If see a bit malu lah...hor?oh ya...then 2day stay back 4 the I.P.W de...but cannot find the mr dunno wat...so w8 a while lor...but rly w8 a while already go eat lunch le...then wed then do liao...haha.Then i realised something...if i rly wan 4get some1 hor...i rly can de leh...haha...so beginning 2 4get u le...u noe hu lah...happy mah?hehe...earlier 4get u earlier can b frens...haha.rly feeling so high now leh...dunno 4 wat?dotty me...haha.weekend so super boring lah...do nth but hwk n revision...sian hor...tis kind of weekends.ok...i wan class camp n choir camp leh...but a bit diff hor...i think impossible de lah...see band the camp like so fun...envy them seh...lol.ok...will we rly hav a class-t?hope hav...coz last year all of us 2gether in same class le...lol.ok...benson...dun b too sad lah...COP...COP lor...try harder 4 2009 SYF...maybe ur 2009 can get gold leh?hu noes?2day mr lim our examiner leh...so happy...dunno y...haha.still like last time...he came in n scratched his body...haha...misses him as our lit,el n form teacher...lol...i think the whole of 2i5 also lah...hor?he drew a smiley beside a good luck on our board...haha.so cute lah...mrs bala tis year form teacher also nvr wish us...sobzz...lol.trying 2 b lame lah...wed got music leh...tat means i need present le...nervous seh...lol...kk...crap finish already...buai

My heart is feeling so empty now...practically has no other feelings except being sad...rly felt like crying...but no tears came out.I wanted 2 laugh...2 4get wat u had done n said 2 me...but my laughter contain sadness,sorrows.I rly wanted regain the past me...the lame n cheerful meiling...always smiling n laughing 4 no reasons...even when i am sad...i can still laugh out loud...y cant i do it now le?I am rly feeling so miserable now...is there some1 out there hu is willing 2 b my listening ear n 2 comfort me?How i wish i got some1 here ready 2 listen 2 my sorrows...writing all it in my blog is of no help 2 me...feeling so sry 4 myself 4 liking u...sry 4 myself 2 b in tis state...I deserve it.ppl told me long ago 2 4get u...but i just ignored it...now...i am in tis state all thks 2 myself...thank u meiling.U actually asked me tis ques n told me those things...Meiling y u so disgusting ah?I dun wan 2 hav lunch wif meiling lah!I dun like meiling...all these might just shot out of ur mouth simply...but when u said all those hav u ever cared bout my feelings?U can also sae bad things bout me just behind me...letting me hear it...ok...now its rly the time 2 4get u le...u told ven tat if i dun like u anymore then we can b frens ba...hope u will keep ur promise ba...lets b frens...now i am just going 2 like the second person 2 4get u...after 4getting u then i 4get him...then i will b free frm tis torture...the feeling of not liking anybody is so great...ok...i will end tis sad post of mine le...bb

yo...updating again...hahs.2moro exam starting le...very scared...coz got compo...my compo standard has dropped so so so much lah...rly hope i will score well 4 my MYE...but just saying it is of no use...actions need 2 b taken...so after updating i will go study le...lol.2day me had show n tell...ven,pei ying,yi chian n junboon also lah...all of us tok bout choir except junboon hu tok bout naruto...lols.When it was my turn 2 go up n sae...i was trembling lah...n my face turned red n hot...rly felt like going back asap...but tat bala keep asking me ques...then i just hav 2 stand there n ans all her ques lor...lol.ok...damn tat stupid shop at west mall lah...tat stupid person told me tat the cup i had make 4 my mother will come yesterday...but i tell her i will go take 2day...then when i go...she tell me the cup will only arrive at 4.30pm!WTF lah...then she tell me w8 there u noe?then i sae cannot she sae u ltr 4.30 then come n take lah...she siao izit tell me go home already go west mall again just 2 take the cup...then now i cant give my mother surprise anymore...i only can give her a belated birthday present...sry mummy...i swear i will nvr ever believe them again already lor...lol.Ya...anyway i not 2timing kayes?the person i recenty like suddenly came in...not i purposely go like de...then now wan 4get either of them so diff...but i will do so asap...so tat ppl will stop saying i 2 timing le...ok...will end here le...BYE!

Having yet another mixture of feelings 2day...shld i feel sad or happy?I rly nvr look at u in class de...ok...mayb sometimes but not EVERYTIME hor...is u most of the time look at me then i look at u 1 kayes?Imagine some1 looks at u...will u look at tat person...u confirm will de...so i look at u also got reason de.coz i realise tat some1 is looking at me.Even if i rly got look at u u also dun need stare at me during english lessons so long de mah...make me feel so uneasy...tell u stop looking le...still look...still can tell me ignore u somemore leh...pro sia.lol...pls pls pls dun like tat in class liao leh...so scary...thank u ah.I failed my english n science test...sad...y will get tis kind of lousy marks 1?Must chiong le...mid year need 2 score well...lol.My heart is in a mess...a moment ago i like him....a moment later i like u...hu do i rly like?liking 2 person at a time is so weird...2 me...the feelings.When ever u ask me hu do i rly like...i rly dunno how 2 answer u...coz i rly dunno hu i like...whenever u tell me u will like A or B...i may sound unconcerned bout it...but actually i care...so...dun tell me hu u will b liking...thks.Nowadays keep doing lame things in class lor...2 entertain my lonely soul....lol...no lah...i like 2 do lame things 4 fun n laughter peace n joy...lol!Oh ya...n i also not badmouthing anybody in tis post of mine ah...tis sentense is 4 hu...the guy reading tis shld noe lah hor...ok...will end here le...bb

4 days nvr post already?or 3 days ah?dunno lah...hu cares lor...lol.I think by writing a post...u might get mental prob...coz sometimes u r toking n laughing 2 urself...lol.My mother's birthday coming this thurs...decided 2 buy her a cup...wif her pic on it...hehe...giving her surprise...dunno she will b touched until cry not leh...lol.Yesterday...i 4 the first time in my life felt so sad,disappointed,hurt n guilty...mixture of feelings lah...coz the 1 person i trusted so much actually betrayed me...he abused the trust i gave 2 him...somemore tell me can ignore him liao...after the things he had done...can ignoring him turn back the time?sadly...no...actually decided 2 ignore him 4ever le...but did not do so...coz he asked 4 my 4giveness...4give him le...but still very hurt...u shld noe hu i am toking bout ba the 1 i am writing here...k...today is a happy day...lol!smiled throughout the whole day...nvr ever so happy b4 ever since i like him...lol.now i am very troubled n lost...i am rly struggling 2 find out hu is the 1 i rly like...him?or him?sian...dun sae tis kind of thing le...change topic...ok...erm...me n ven went library 2day...2 do tat hui ben!then as we do...i was so noisy lah...i think...coz i jept laughing...rly hated quiet libraries...i whisper only also can hear leh...lol.I noe lah...library is meant 2 be quiet...but i just dun like it lor...then the lady sitting directly opp. us 1 keep staring at us leh...dunno stare wat...lol...wan slap her face sia...no lah...jkjk.ok...i noe i write tis some ppl might sae...i also wan slap ur face...lol.oh ya...then 2day Xun Yan came 2 sit beside me...theen me n ven wan sleep already mah...so we tell him go back...but he dun wan leh...zzz...so we let him stay there lor...then when i about 2 fall asleep tat time he go take my spects ask if he can wear not leh...lame lor...then he go sleep on my table sharing my table wif him...lol...still sing lullaby somemore leh...wah...then rly cant take it liao...quickly tell him go back his place...he dun wan leh...then kana scolded by ven...haha...xun yan...orby...lol...ok...i will end tis post here le...bb

Sad...n dissapointed...choir got a bronze 4 SYF...i felt tat we have worked very hard 4 it n i tot we sang quite well already...how could we hav possibly gotten a bronze?I was like thinking we will get a silver 4 sure already...haizz...but as we hav all tried our very best...we shall hav no regrets bout tis.But i rly felt like crying now...coz it seems like we hav let our teachers n seniors down...they got a silver 4 the last SYF n now we did not maintain it n got a bronze instead...
I am holding back my tears now...Cheryl's dream has come true...we got a bronze n i rly cried...so dreams r not always the opposite of reality...dreams come true at times.Like today...Today is the last day of the sec 4's...so sad...wonder if they will come back n visit us not...2day we were allowed 2 stay in the music till 2pm so tat we need not go back 2 class 4 lessons...shiok leh...lol.Ven played my hp n after tat when we saw the guys playing poke cards then we also felt like playing...so went over...but did not expected them 2 rly let us play wif them leh...so happy...wat a memorable day today is...lol.At first we played Tai di...then we played cheat...i wanted 2 cheat by saying tat my no. 5 card is a 2...but got exposed bcoz my card flipped opened n every1 saw my fake no. 2 card...so need take all the cards...so pai seh lah...play until so shi bai...lol.There r so many projects tat r rushing us lor...I.P.W,I.T n the hui ben...all next week need submit so rushing now like mad...then hwk also getting more n more as the days r nearer 2 the exams...feeling so stress now sia...now on hand i hav a chinese hwk,refresh my memories 4 the mo xie n preparing 4 2moro the oral exam...i think i will b getting white hairs soon...lol.ok...tok crap finish already...will end here le...bb

2moro SYF le...feeling so excited now...lol.We got 2 reach school by 6!Which means i hav 2 wake up by 4.30am...very early hor...ven will only wake up at 5.30am!I am waking up 1 hr earlier then her...-_-"...Dion is even worst...waking up at 3am...wonder y he wake up so early leh...curious.After competing 2moro we will not noe the reaults until friday...i think.So friday when they announced the results of wat choir get...dun blame the choir members if they r super high...lol.2day ew sang at the school hall 4 assembly...i think we sang very very very badly...my face was totally black lah...when we sang the 3 songs...lol.Then Pei ying cried coz she is very disappointed wif our performance...lol...was wondering y she cried.haha...Now i am left wif the geog w/s,science w/b n 1 ques of maths 4 hwk...dun feel like doing le...coz i dunno how do...lol.These few days were super high in class n feeling very happy also...kept laughing...n playing...until one guy scolded me...then i cannot take it so i sae him back lor...coz i was wondering hu the heck is he 2 control me lah...erm...sry 4 tat...but i rly u hope u will not sae me anymore le...i really cannot take it le...tats y 2day i exploded n said u back...oh ya...n i am trying my best now 2 4get u le...happy?lol...ok...2day during choir ven told me 2 look at jian hao...then i look lor...then only see his face very red only...but ven already laughing like mad le...although i dunno wat he laughing at lah...but i still laugh...lol.ok...nth more 2 write le...bb

Did not post 4 a few few days already...coz lazy...haha.Someone got rejected by a gal tat he likes...must b feeling very sad now ba...although u told me u r not sad at all...i still think tat u r bluffing...so the conclusion is...dun b sad already.lol...stay happy always n always put up tat charming smile of urs.tat someone shld noe tat i am toking bout u lah...hehe...n he became my kor already...lol.So i wun eva hav a possibility tat i will like him after 4getting the 1 i like now.haha...ok...i noe i super lame...lol.Wah...ven got an admirer named mike 1...so envious of her...(is there such a word called envious ah?i dunno leh...if dun hav dun laugh at me hor...lol)so devoted de...lol.wonder when i will hav 1 too...mayb i 4eva wun hav...lol.Really hope tat choir can clinched a silver medal back 4 the sch...SYF reaching in 2 days time...very nervous...legs confirm will shake on tat day 1...lol.Wonder if u hate me...coz i was told tat u sae bad things behind my back...sry...wan u 2 tag at my tagboard again 2 tell me the ans...pls...but if u rly hate me hope u wun already...u shld noe hu i am toking 2 ba...ok...nth more 2 write already...bb

Yo!wonder how many days nvr post le...did ur count?ok...i noe i lame...haha.Went 2 VCH 2day 4 a the SYF rehearsal...when we sang there it is like so nice lah...ok...2 me.So sing until overhigh liao...go sing beritone part...then stick out my tongue...which means oops...lol.Then sing until halfway suddenly wan go toilet...so urgent lah...how i wish ms lim will give us a toilet break at tat moment 4 me 2 use the toilet...haha.Really hope choir can get at least a silver or even a GOLD...but i think a bit impossilble leh...but try our best lah...try our best k?on the SYF day...Fuhua choir u can do it de...lolz.To those in Fuhua band...dun b too disappointed k?u all hav already tried ur best...so even if ur get a COP or even bronze...ur shld b very proud of it too...coz ur had tried ur very best rite?Really hated make up...so troublesome leh...make already go home still need remove it then the face will b so super oily lah...hated tat feeling lah...lol.Feeling so sad now...SYF is coming soon n is going 2 reach...which means tat the sec 4 r leaving soon...wonder if they will miss us not...n come back 2 visit us as many times as possible...how i wish they can not leave choir 4ever...lol...i noe tat is impossible lah...haha.Justing having a nice dream...lol.Very long no hav mo xie already...now tell us memorise 3 poems...wat the...brain rusty already leh...still tell us memorise 3 poems at 1 go...lol.This message is 4 him...wonder if u got come my blog after tat time u came n saw me scolding u here...n see my sry...if u ever come my blog again pls tag 2 let me noe u came...wondering y i am so afraid of u...lol.I am very afraid tat i will like some1...after 4getting him...bt tat some1 tell me not 2 worry...bt i still worry leh...hope i wun like him ba...ok...i will end tis post le...buai

Yo!it seems like i am updating everyday...hehe...addicted 2 blogging n folding those hearts using straw...wan fold stars 1...bt dunno how leh...so loose n ugly de i fold...so decided 2 learn 2moro frm ven!haha...lol.2day got tat stupid chinese lit thingy lah...taught by tat he lao shi...her china accent so strong lor...keep ah-ing almost after every sentense she said...lol.2day got so many tests...n the worst thing is i 4got all bout 2day's science test so i did not study 4 it...really hope i can pass the test...nowadays so slack...zzz...need buck up le...lol.erm...lets countdown 2 the days b4 MYE is starting...erm...w8 ah...i count...17 more days...lol...lame me.dun give me tat -_-" face ah...haha.jkjk...u wan give also can de.just now i am writing using the happy sad of me...now is the sad side of me...really really so surprised tat u will come n see my blog...ok...after u sae me le...i shall not write bad things bout u again...so i really really wish tat u will not sae me again...deal?promise?i hope u will agree wif me...k?i dun dare 2 sae all tis 2 u rite in front of u...so i am writing it in my blog hoping u will come n read it n agree wif me...ok...i will end here le...buai...^^

sry 4 saying n scolding u in my blog...i really cannot take it then write in my blog de lor...also dun dare tell u face 2 face my displeasure wif u...hope u will 4givem me lah...ok...nth 2 write le...

Updating everyday leh...see i so good...lol...no lah...jk only.haha.dunno y but felt like updating...so update lor...read frm ven's blog tat she felt tat she doesn't have any true frens...i tot tat way too...me does not hav any true frens also...how can i find back the type of relationship which we had last year?Having a secret sharing session in the library every thursday...baring out all our secrets 2 one another...but now...all of us seems 2 hav so many secrets inside us...afraid 2 sae it out...y has it become like tat?how i wish i can return 2 last time when we r all such good frens...ok...lets stop toking bout tat...change another topic.ok...suddenly felt like really 4getting him,not like him anymore n get him completely out of my life...nvr ever 2 see him again...but i just cant do it no matter how hard i tried...and the worst thing is the more i wan 2 4get him the more i like him...strange?weird?Nvr had tat kind of feelings b4...ppl reading my blog may think tat i am a saddist ba...bt i am not k?i very happy everyday de...only tis few days like tat...i think after a few days will b ok le...hope so ba...jy meiling!in 4getting tat person...lol.ok...i will end here...bb

did not post a few days ltr as i had mentioned in yesterday's blog...hahs...but the next day...lol...ok...i am crapping...lol.erm...today choir practice was so so lah...tot berritone today dun need come leh...then at study room suddenly saw tat jian hao...lols...then noe they actually have de...wonder if choir will bcome very boring when jian leave choir...he is like the joker of the choir...making everyone laugh in between choir practices...today the berritones were all standing behind me...the jian hao like singing so loudly lah...blasting in my ears...covering alto voice le...haha.then he crapping behind me lah...then wan laugh dun dare laugh...so very xin ku...lol.erm...then vennesa today like super high leh...then there must b something wrong wif her...she told us tat if she is super high means tat she is feeling sad or sth is wrong wif her lah...so quite concerned bout her...to ven:(if ur sad...dun b sad le k?).feeling very miserable now...having a mixture of feelings...sad n angry...u saw me today...bt u pretended tat u did not see me?r u going 2 treat me like tis frm today onwards?maybe i am too sensitive ba...i hope so...maybe u really did not saw me today...really hope so...i felt as if i am the saddest person on earth now...although i noe i am not...ok...got 2 end here le...bb

long time no post already...did not bother 2 count how many days...lol.ok...i am super duper angry wif 1 stupid guy...ok...i like him...so wat?hu is he 2 sae me lah...sae wan slap me sae i qian bian n worst of all...tell me go n die leh!walao...as if he nvr ever like a gal b4 lah...like him a sin meh?its only a crush mah...i think about 95% of secondary sch students in the whole world has a crush now lor...i am not the only 1...then everytime sae i looking at him...he siao is it?i think he got mental problem...keep thinking tat some1 is looking at him...he is the 1 hu look at me first 2 see if i looking at him lah...ok...if some1 keeps staring at u will u look at tat person?u will rite?everyone will lor...then when i look at him...he will sae wat...lol...lets tok bout another topic...tot 2moro no choir de...then suddenly received a phone call frm Tania n a sms frm a fren frm choir telling me tat there is choir tomorrow!10.45 2 1...i frm a very high mood change immediately 2 a super sian mood lah...even saturday also dun wan let us off...lol...u may b thinking...dun go lah...pon lor...i also wan...but u noe wat they sae?if u dun go...u will b kicked out of SYF!wat the...like tat of course must go already wat...rite?lol...then next week 4 days out of 7 days got choir...mon,wed,fri n sat...2 choir practices,1 rehearsal n 1 exchange...sian...zzz.ok...some1 frm our class is angry wif another some1 frm our class...they just 4gave each other not long ago lor...n were like playing n chatting so happily le...then now like tat again...wat 4?hope u wun be angry wif him le...oh ya...suddenly remembered sth...Daryl's fren tot i am vennesa lah...tat time i walked past their class wif ven beside me hor...they suddenly look at me n sae eh vennesa u like daryl ah?then i was like...vennesa?i am not vennesa wat...i meiling...lol.then i immediately tell them i not vennesa...then they dun believe leh...so i tell daryl clarify wif them...now ok le...i am not vennesa 2 them le...lol.k...nth more 2 write le...wish any1 hu came 2 moi blog 2 hav a happy day!lol...n tis is specially 4 tat some1...(dun b sad le k?i think u got chance de...just w8 patiently...)...ok...buai all...i think the next time i post will b a few days ltr le...^^bb!

hi all...posting again...lol...today choir wan sleep...my eyes half closing already lah...bt cant sleep!Coz we r standing up...if i fall asleep...u would soon hear a loud sound...bomp!n here i am...lying on the floor...n every1 will b laughing...lol.Today choir sae sian not sian...sae interesting also not interesting...so its normal ba...bt 1 thing good bout 2day's choir is tat we r being let off earlier!Shiok man!so nan de lah...i think once in a very blue moon then got such thing will happen...lol.ok...lets not tok bout choir anymore...hahs...^^.Have ur ever wondered if ur really hav true frens?Maybe they r just making use of u or putting on an act in front of u?N backstabbing u behind?If u had nvr ever in ur whole lifetime tot about tis ques...then i think its time 4 u 2 think bout it now...very seriously...lol.Just write bout wondering if i have any true frens n there...ppl began asking me wats wrong wif me...concerned bout me...so happy 2 see tat...thks guys 4 ur concern...lol...then some1...hu is 1 of my good fren is very good...he offered 2 let me sms him whenever i am sad...2 share my troubles wif him...erm...thks a lot...tis fren is really hard 2 find...^^oh ya...then today in class...suddenly got a lot of ppl borrow glue tape frm me...n 1 of them is him...he asked me 4 my glue tape...telling me 2 throw 2 him...bt my glue tape throw 2 times b4 already n those 2 times after being thrown has spoit...so i dun dare throw...bt e keep saying tyrow lah...nvm de...then i throw lor...then after using it...he throw back again...wat the...then got 1 part dunno fly where...luckily i found it n fixed it back again...if not tis will b the third glue tape tat is being thrown n had spoit...lol...all crap rite?i noe...coz i nth more 2 write le mah...ok...gotta stop here le...buai!=)