For the very first time, or maybe very few times, I am actually confused, sad and helpless over someone else's things. For once, i am genuinely concerned and there is not even a second evil voice speaking to me when im concerned about that person. Not that im never concerned about anyone but whenever im concerned for others, i would still think negatively about that person which i dont know why and im trying very hard to change. Ok, that is not the main point.

To think that i undermined your sadness shows how bad a friend i am. You laughed with me and i believed it, thinking your heart may be healing bit by bit as you laugh it out. But thats certainly not the case. It healed for maybe a split second and you would turn back to your sad self again. And to think that i sent you naive messages about cheering up and everything, it just disgusts me. I didnt know the whole situation and yet im asking you to cheer up. Anyway, i think im partly at fault for all the things you are going through because i just remembered im the one who egged you on when u asked for opinions on what to do. Im so sorry, i didnt know it would turn out this way.

Anyway, God is waiting for you to come home and face Him with a heart free of shame and guilt. Press on ok! Know that everyone's with you! And all of us are waiting for the day when you are freed from your bondage.

I dont feel like doing PW lor. D= Anyway i hope everyone from my class will promote together coz it just feels weird to have anyone missing from 22/10. Anyway OP is so stupid I have to memorise my script and first of all i need to write out a script but im lazy. =S

Anyway can u think before shooting your mouth off? Have you ever wondered how others would feel just because of your insensitiveness? Okay, im in no position to comment but still i think it's still wrong of you to do so.

Everytime you smile and talk to me, it makes my day. I wonder when i can not think about you every second of my life. D= How i wish i can just disappear and not think of you anymore. DDDDD=

HEY! Today was such a great day coz it's my birthday hahaha. Anyway i got the best birthday gift today which is to pass all my papers in promos and to even get a B for chemistry! Praise God! So... I think i will be promoted? And my teacher praised me too for improving a lot! hehehe. =D Anyway today i had lots of surprises and so it was basically a happy day lah! So anyway i just want to thank everyone that celebrated my birthday with me. Suen, Shuwen, claudia, cheryl, guin, wang zhe, hui min, han jia, yan ning, yi ning, my classmates, 4e2 people, Ser hiang, choir mates and all the wishes on facebook. =DDD

Anyway i will be posting my birthday presents 2moro! hehehe thanks everyone.

Last but not least, i seriously thank god for his grace and faithfulness! So praise Him! Without God, i would not have the strength to continue studying during the promos period even though i feel tired. OK BYEBYE. It's 10.43pm now and my bday is ending in 1 hour and 15 mins time and i feel sad. D= OH i forgot to mention that i received a birthday balloon and a birthday cake today. So happy i have been wanting a birthday balloon since eons ago and also to cut a cake with my friends in school and i finally had the chance to do so. YEP. So byeeeeeee.


P/S: IM SO HAPPY TODAY, it's prolly one of the best birthday. WHEEEEEEE.

Im so disgusted by your words and actions.

I love how my group's wr is finally getting into place and the teacher is starting to give us hope that maybe our project wasnt that bad afterall. HEHE. Things are no longer messy and irritating so nowadays i like to do PW coz it gives me a sense of satisfaction when i get things done. =D

Anyway, i cant wait for the chalet where i can chill and talk and play and yada yada. Do everything except PW and hopefully, not think about my results which would be released on 25th oct. HEHE 25th oct doesnt it sound familiar? But anyway that day would be such a busy day i wont have time to play. Morning hand in WR, then check exam papers then go for choir. Day ends at 6.15. -_-''

Okay, stop digressing but i am seriously looking for the chalet which is actually a yearly event starting from 2008. Not sure how this trend started but every year i would ask my mama to take a chalet for me to go and stay with my friends. =D WHEE. Oh something horrible to add on, i ate like a pig today! I ate like 5 to 6 meals today lor. SELF CONTROL YEO MEI LING. So disgusted with myself for eating so much food today!

Oh yes and i just realised that after promos, i dont have the mood to slack but when the promos were nearing, i would feel like slacking every single day of my life and when i managed to do so i would feel very happy! HAHA. Stupid but yes, that's how i felt before and after promos.

OKAY BYEBYE PEOPLE.

Hello! I never go to school today and it's coz im sick and not coz i pon. hahaha. It's been a while since i have really fallen sick and im glad my friends believe me that im really sick and not assume that im ponning! If not i will be very sad lor. Okay, i must get well by 2moro so that i can go to school for PW and not just leave everything to my group members if not they would not get to sleep already. AND AND AND it's so that i can go to my chalet this weekend to play! If im not well, then i can just stay at home and shake leg already, not go to chalet to shake leg instead. HAHAHA lame lah.

Oh anyway yesterday i visited my blogshop and i realised how much i miss blogshopping and having a blogshop. So, i guess i would open my blogshop again after A's, provided im still interested in it. LOL. Anyway i know who's the angel of the sad mortal and i feel like laughing at the sad mortal! Coz he/she is always grumbling that he/she has a passive angel and he/she doesnt receive any cards from the angel! HEHEHE.

OK BYEBYE im sleeping now.

HELLO! The top secret thing is finally over and done with and im happy with it. =D Anyway i wasnt scared about failing econs and chem at all until Mandy starts infusing me with ideas why i could fail those 2 subjects. MANDYYYYYY! you are always capable of doing such things lor. LOL. And i just realise how much i love the people in AJC, in choir, in my class but i seriously think there is something wrong with the school building itself and the P. Those 2 things just make every single thing happening in AJC go haywire and make everyone hate school but somehow the nice people in AJ will change your mind about AJC being a really bad school. HEHE.

Anyway now that the promos are officially over, i want to shop for a lot of things plus do a lot of things.

1) Buy a laptop bag
2)Buy shoes
3)Buy shirts and nice clothes
4)Buy a pencil case
5)Go to east coast park to cycle + picnic!
6)Ice skating
7)Buffet
8)Watch moviesssssss

PLUS looking forward to the chalet! WHEEEEEEEE bbq, escape, cycling, chat 24/7, eat late night supper till i turn fat and of course playing till i drop with the greenies + cheryl. OK byebye i have no worries till i get back my results. =D

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah hey! Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah ho! (YOG song) LOL. Yesterday onwards till the day i get back my results would be the prefect period to sing this song. So if you are a fan of this song, come sing it to me! LOLLLLLL. The days of studying everyday till 9 at the library is finally over and i catch some breath too. whee~ i can go drink coffee at bucks or bean with the slacker claudidu (no work just coffee. YES!) i can go to the beach for a picnic with the greenies, i can go to cheryl's house to disturb her. hahaha. Life after exam is just fantastic. I've never ever felt such great joy after an exam coz i never ever spent 1 month of preparation for an exam before. HAHA.

Anyway, im quite scared that i will retain still but what's done cannot be undone and God is faithful! So i shall trust in Him and He will provide. =D Oh talking about this, i can finally go to church 'legally' and can stop telling stories to my mum just because i want to go to church. YIPEE. However, it will only be legal till next year coz school will start and my mum will use school to stop me from going again. Her sleeves are always full of tricks. >=(

Okay nothing else to say already byebye.