Im utterly ashamed of myself today because I ps my study mates and came home to slack. I only wanted to sleep for an hour before I head to the CC to study but in the end, I slept like a log till 7pm. Horrible or what? I was just sick of studying everyday after school with little progress. Like my studying speed is super WOLS(slow). I can camp at the library for hours with only a wee bit of work done. Maybe it's cos I'm only focusing on one subject such that it made me feel that way? I'm not sure but I'm starting to feel like an engine breaking down soon. *Vrooommmmm eeeeekkkkk eeekk eeeekk* Like my productivity is going downhill.

Anyway yesterday was one of my most upsetting and disappointed day because many unpleasant things just happened one after another. I was so excited to pray for Rebecca's exam and yada yada for my church's 40up campaign and I was really motivated to ask her to come to church. But in the end, her response really came as a shock to me and I really felt like stopping my prayer half way. During the whole prayer, she just kept laughing and making the che sound like she's smirking or something and yayayayayayaya. And I felt quite horrible after that so much so that I don't even wanna see her face anymore. =( I was quite sad about it lah coz I really prayed very hard before I met her but in the end her response was like THIS. Meanwhile I can only continue to pray for her. Oh then later on in the afternoon, there were a string of events happening which made me feel like crap and an insignificant being which I won't mention here. Frankly speaking, I am still quite bothered about everything that happened yesterday.

Blah just feel like crap and shall stop here. Bye.

Warning: Long grumbling post for me to vent my frustration do not read it if you are feeling happy.

40 UP has finally started and I'm finally going to do my prayer walk tomorrow! Excited yet nervous at the same time. Plus a bit irritated. -.- I was the one asking this girl called Pamelyn to do the prayer walk with me and in the end timing had been changed like multiple times and I have to ask her like 1000 times when is the fixed day and timing to prayer walk. Then to my horror, she's already planned the walk with the school councillor without telling me anything about it. Now there's a J1 boy from FCBC also which I know nothing of. How irresponsible is that? If I didn't ask her today I wouldn't be able to join in the prayer walk which I badly wanted to. Zzz no more asking me to do things with her. Then now I'm like the celefare(extra).

Can't stand you being so irresponsible, nonchalant and taking my words like a pinch of salt. Why do I always need to be the one to wait wait wait like as if I'll die without you. We need to talk soon and find out what's the issue here. Meanwhile, I need to pray because maybe it's just me.

Oh and I need to think of ways to bless my pre believing friends using the ibless cards. I hope I can really do something to glorify the Lord and not just sit around in church every week just blessing myself and only me all the time. KKKK bye.