Oh my goodness. I finally told my mum that im a christian. After like 5 years and lying to her everytime i want to go to church. I really cant describe how happy i am now because i can finally stop lying to her. =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Really thank God for giving me the courage to tell my mum the truth. I have been praying for years and it has finally come true and my mum is approving of me becoming a christian.

ok dont feel like blogging already next time then blog. BYEBYE.

My mentality has changed ever since mid years ended. D= Nowadays, if you ask me to choose between playing and resting i would certainly choose to rest and then head home to have a solid sleep. After the shitty results, i am more hardworking now and will also do my tutorials dutifully coz im seriously afraid of retaining. AND THATS THE REAL PROBLEM. Im more hardworking now, so i will spend more energy on studying and then plus the heavy choir plus PW plus having 2 tuitions plus NO REST, always home late, weekends also need to go out (all not because of playing i assure you) Im seriously going to break down soon. Not an emo post. Just that im really really tired and JC life is sucking out all the energy from me. Im tired every single moment im hoping every single day that once i open my eyes, the next day, A levels would have ended already. The thought of spending another 1 and a half year more in JC just gives me the shivers.

Just when will this thing end? Im really very very very very very tired. This is certainly more tiring than the O levels period.

OK BYEBYE. =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Nowadays, i have severe mood swings. I can be super duper happy and enter a laughing fit and laugh till i drop and the next moment, i will feel super emo. -_____-" This is called what the hell disease. Seriously so what theeeeeeeeee. HAHA but the thing to note is that nobody will even realise im emo-ing coz i will still laugh when im emo. So it's like sad inside but laughing outside. It's not a fake laughter but i will just feel damn irritated while im laughing. ok this is super weird. I want to get that emo-ness off me. Frankly speaking, i think im still bothered by my results. I know this was an incident that happened eons ago but still... plus some people will just do irritating stuff to irritate me.

THIS IS SUPER WHATEVER I shall just go and sleep now. Super tired. Dont know why im tired also never even do anything productive in the day also tired. LOL.

p.s my feet stink and i dont know why.
p.p.s today got ti ko pek at mac keep mumbling nonsense to me but i just ignored him. =D
p.p.p.s im going to sleep now! hehehehehe

BYEBYE.

Labels: WHAT THE HELL.

HELLO! It's a happy post again coz i have come to terms with my results already. Which means, im no longer emo and not smiling forcefully. wheeeeeeeee. Anyway i love days when the chicken zest stall in my school sells pork rice! It is really HEAVENLY, the pork is tender and i know you know how good it is. =D HAHA anyway today i did something quite funny. I was deciding whether i want to eat pork rice or curry rice and in the end i chose curry rice which was sad. D= Coz i dont have 'curry mood' today, so i ate it reluctantly. THEN! I saw yining buying pork rice so i stole a piece of pork from her plate while she wasnt looking at her plate and was caught red handed! LOL! Super funny then she gave me a shock face so i gave her my curry chicken which she doesnt like and came back to me in the end. YAY stealing of pork success.

ok 2nd epic thing of the day was in the evening after i ate dinner with cherry. I was drinking my milk tea and looking into the esprit shop not expecting anything to be there at the glass display when all of a sudden this little boy came out to scare me! I got a shock and thus spit the milk tea
all over my face. Gross ttm. The funny thing was the little boy was laughing happily when he saw that i got a shock. LOL! Supposed to be irritated and angry but that little boy is too funny for me to be angry with him.

ok anyway this is random. i suddenly miss saying relax choya and 'i just farted haha' to claudia. Totally random but i miss them. =DDD Not forgetting the silly moments with cherry, guinny, old shoes and sickloh. Oh gosh, i really miss secondary school. Not saying that my friends in JC are not nice but i feel happier when im with my sec school friends. haha.

OK BYE!

WARNING: EMO POST BELOW LEAVE IF U ARE FEELING HAPPY NOW.

Im feeling super sad now coz i flunked all my papers. Like seriously all? i wont be so sad if i managed to pass at least one or two but i passed none. =( I studied really hard for this MYCTs especially for maths and chem and history but then now the results are such a disappointment. As for econs i deserve to fail coz i only studied for 1 hour before the exam. zzz. Us and Ss and moreeeeee to come. My maths isnt back yet but im kinda sure it's a U but i am seriously wanting an E for maths so that i can at least pass a subject and wont feel so 'empty'.

Nowadays, i cant find any reason for me to laugh or to be happy coz once i think of my results, i would feel so empty and sad and just want to emo at a corner. LOL. ok this is seriously super emo but i cant help it lah! I've never ever tried failing ALL my papers before so im really traumatised by it. D= Good news is, it gives me the motivation to study really hard for promos so that i will get promoted. Actually... i still laugh in school and it's not that the laughter is not coming from the bottom of my heart but just that right after i finish being happy, i would feel sad immediately and my face would turn expression-less.

I need to handle my emotions well now if not i would remain sad forever. HAHA KIDDING why would i be sad forever. I guess i would be ok in a few weeks' time or maybe in a few days time when i have finally come to terms with my results. =D

Anyway, today during history lesson, this history friend made me super pissed off. ANGRY lor. When i got back my history, i told her i got a U then she was like ohhhhh then when she got back her paper, she got a S so you know what she do? She was like saying right to my face, YES! YES! YES! I got an S lucky i never get U plus i passed my question 2! YES! Erm like so insensitive? Hello? Someone here just got a U for history and u are making a statement like 'lucky i never get U'. Please be more sensitive towards other people's feelings. Even if i pass my test and u fail i also wont shout YES YES YES to your face coz i know it will only make u feel more upset.

ok the oh-whatever emo post has ended. BYEBYE.

Hello! I didnt go for class bbq today and i felt super guilty about it for not informing them early. =/ Anyway i was rude to the class leader too, she was asking me to pay up for the bbq using a long message then i was like oh if you are worried about the money issue, i paid the treasurer already even though im not going. I said that to force her to shut up and stop rambling about me not paying and thus getting angry but i realised my tone was super wrong and im at fault in the first place so i shouldnt say those things to her. =SSS

SORRY! I dont know how to say it in front of you so this is a cowardy way of saying sorry. (Or is the right spelling cowardly?) Im really sorry. =(

Anyway i was glad i went for cell instead coz they were talking about the 40 days of faith. Woohoo~ a way to start challenging myself and stop hiding in my comfort zone. I really hope i can bring my jc friends to get to know christ or if thats too much for me to do, make them less anti-christ. =D Oh yes, sidetrack. Nowadays, whatever i see would tell me what i will expect to see later, so it's like some six sense thingy? Or maybe i should say if i suddenly thought of a primary school friend, i would see that person's mother all of a sudden then i would see that person on facebook. When all these while i didnt even know she has a facebook and i didnt even bother to check it. ok it sounds creepy but it seems like it's all from God. ok maybe im thinking too much, but it's good that i link every good things to God right? It's better than me just living my own life ignoring God.

ANYWAY GOD IS SERIOUSLY AMAZING AND I HAVE JUST BEGUN TO UNDERSTAND HIM MORE. ok hehehehehe i have seriously made a great improvement than when i was in secondary school always doubting about whether God is real yada yada.

ok! Anyway this weekend is longgggggggggg and i will be meeting the greenies tomorrow for steamboat buffet and to mug. I have come to the conclusion that i shouldnt be slacking all the time and only during exams would i chiong like a crazy mugger. Shiok a doo doo right? (Not the mugging of course, the buffet is shiok. hehe.) ok on monday i may be meeting claudia to accompany her for her ridiculous but funny at the same time assignment and after that cycling or mugging. okie dokey call me mugger yeo next time. That's my new name im never ever going to retain. (JUST JOKING please dont call me mugger yeo it sounds horrible.)

ok byebye!

OH YAY! OH GOODNESS GRACIOUS ME!

THE EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER! OH MY. I've waited for this day for like donkey years. Ever since the june holidays started, i have been looking forward to the end of it coz i have to like study everyday which is kinda no life. LOL.

Wheeeeeeeeewoooooooo. ok I sound like a bird or something. Anyway the main thing is that i think im gonna flunk my maths. I left like 50 plus marks blank? Actually not completely blank for all, but still, im going to fail it which is kinda sad. Nvm, i shall still enjoy this 4 days holiday which is like a make up holiday for the jc students since our june holidays was no where near a holiday. =/

okok this is not the main point either. The main point of this post is to say that i think there is a problem with my stomach. I feel like shitting every single minute. Like so erm...? During the entire maths exam my stomach was feeling super horrible and then like want shit but cannot shit coz no time then it's just horrible lor. =S Anyway im going to pop some diarrhoea(OMGOODNESS i think i spelt it correctly for the first time of my life.) haha ok i did a stupid thing in school today too. LOL. Coz it was raining heavily in the afternoon, till i cant even hear myself talking, i decided to scream to see if anyone can hear me, thinking that no one could but in the end some people with shun feng er managed to hear it lah. Wah super embarrassing i could just dig a hole and just jump in immediately. ok byebye. =D