My heart is feeling so empty now...practically has no other feelings except being sad...rly felt like crying...but no tears came out.I wanted 2 laugh...2 4get wat u had done n said 2 me...but my laughter contain sadness,sorrows.I rly wanted regain the past me...the lame n cheerful meiling...always smiling n laughing 4 no reasons...even when i am sad...i can still laugh out loud...y cant i do it now le?I am rly feeling so miserable now...is there some1 out there hu is willing 2 b my listening ear n 2 comfort me?How i wish i got some1 here ready 2 listen 2 my sorrows...writing all it in my blog is of no help 2 me...feeling so sry 4 myself 4 liking u...sry 4 myself 2 b in tis state...I deserve it.ppl told me long ago 2 4get u...but i just ignored it...now...i am in tis state all thks 2 myself...thank u meiling.U actually asked me tis ques n told me those things...Meiling y u so disgusting ah?I dun wan 2 hav lunch wif meiling lah!I dun like meiling...all these might just shot out of ur mouth simply...but when u said all those hav u ever cared bout my feelings?U can also sae bad things bout me just behind me...letting me hear it...ok...now its rly the time 2 4get u le...u told ven tat if i dun like u anymore then we can b frens ba...hope u will keep ur promise ba...lets b frens...now i am just going 2 like the second person 2 4get u...after 4getting u then i 4get him...then i will b free frm tis torture...the feeling of not liking anybody is so great...ok...i will end tis sad post of mine le...bb