For the very first time, or maybe very few times, I am actually confused, sad and helpless over someone else's things. For once, i am genuinely concerned and there is not even a second evil voice speaking to me when im concerned about that person. Not that im never concerned about anyone but whenever im concerned for others, i would still think negatively about that person which i dont know why and im trying very hard to change. Ok, that is not the main point.

To think that i undermined your sadness shows how bad a friend i am. You laughed with me and i believed it, thinking your heart may be healing bit by bit as you laugh it out. But thats certainly not the case. It healed for maybe a split second and you would turn back to your sad self again. And to think that i sent you naive messages about cheering up and everything, it just disgusts me. I didnt know the whole situation and yet im asking you to cheer up. Anyway, i think im partly at fault for all the things you are going through because i just remembered im the one who egged you on when u asked for opinions on what to do. Im so sorry, i didnt know it would turn out this way.

Anyway, God is waiting for you to come home and face Him with a heart free of shame and guilt. Press on ok! Know that everyone's with you! And all of us are waiting for the day when you are freed from your bondage.